I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life. I’m going to take a stand. I’m going to defend it. Right or wrong, I’m going to defend it.

Wise words from Cameron Frye.

Here I am almost 3 months fresh outta Compton college and yet I am still unemployed. Nonetheless I still set my alarm for 6:45 each morning. Crazy? No. Drastic? A little. Positive and Determined? Heck yeah! Even though I have not been hired by any actual person or company I asked myself if I could have any dream position, what would it be? I love blogging; I love fashion; I like a great design, as well as creating a good one; social media is just so fascinating to me; and I enjoy writing chunky pieces once in a while. Combining all that, now that would be the greatest job ever. While I have yet to come up with a title for it - but by all means, I am accepting ideas - that’s what I am. I have hired myself and became my own boss. If this is what I really wanna do then why not start now? Why do I have to wait for someone to hire me to make something of myself?

Plus, if you’re your own boss, you can get promoted  anytime you want! Wait, I actually may be onto something there. Promote yourself and take on more work. Push yourself to do more and create more. If you can’t trust yourself to do that why would any other person want to?

All this time I was waiting for inspiration to hit me so I can actually do something with my life, little did I know I need to be my own catalyst.

17. Forget March Madness this is May Maelstrom

mael·strom/ˈmālˌsträm/

Noun:

1. A powerful whirlpool in the sea or a river.
2. A scene or state of confused and violent movement or upheaval.

 Dione von Furstenburg once said, “I didn’t really know what I wanted to do but I knew the woman I wanted to become.”  All my life I wanted to be this or that but I never could pin point the exact career path I wanted to walk down. It was not until I chatted with my professor, Deb Morrison that I realized… I still don’t know what exactly I want to do. Most would call that a failure but from my point of view, I see it as a breaking ground. Now that I have cleared the table and moved back to square one, I can have somewhat of a fresh start.

I bet you’re still wondering why I call it May Maelstrom, huh? Even though I have gained a somewhat clearer picture I still have all these things, ideas, and questions buzzing around in my head. I am still a little confused about  this whole state that I am in. HOWEVER, not to fret because I made a list. It consists of all the things that I want(ed) to be.

(Don’t worry, I’ll post a visual  here so y’all can see what I mean).

I then made a venn diagram (which will also be posted) of all the things these careers and jobs have in common. From there, I am now broadening my scope of jobs and finding more jobs that suit those commonalities.  This is probably get real messy and chaotic. Again, hence the name May Maelstrom. In essence, I am creating my own draft pick of careers that I could see myself working at.  I will find people that work in those positions, basically stalk their online portfolios, biographies, social networks and find out how they got to where they’re at. Hopefully, by the end of all this I will have narrowed it down to an actual tangible career instead of saying I want to be blah blah blah.

Here goes nothing something. Close your eyes, cross your fingers,  and pray to God this all works out.